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Sunday, August 30th, 2009
6:04 pm	It's apperently weekly. "Don't look up." She said. But I knew. I could feel her tears on the back of my head. "Please... It'll be ok." How could she be so strong while weeping? My eyes burn too. My lips are dry too. My nose is stuffed too. But I cannot cry. Not anymore... ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ I often think about the damage I have inflicted. I hate it. Looking back, looking forward. I'm now afraid to get really close. To anyone. With the fear that I will ultimately destroy them. Leave them for dead. As I have done before. That said... I probably should stop dating... But I don't. And I won't. I love the attention. I like sex too much. I am ego. Breathing, shitting ego. Emotionless, but passionate. Passionate but apathetic. Apathetic but constantly trying, working, clawing, fighting, thinking, wondering... Living. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- At least the music is unique. Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: Space (I Believe In): The Pixies (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 16th, 2009
11:25 pm	Billbored bottom 1000 I feel it coming on again... Like I am going to have a hard time pulling it together. Like lacing my shoes. Like waking up. I tried to be stand up. I tried to flex my muscles and straighten my back. Suffering from scoliosis. "God is dead You all seem pretty sad Missing what you had Someone to blame You cannot help yourself Play the hand you're dealt Life is a game And I'm cheating We are apes Monkeys shot to space We are the disposable Disposable race. Woke up this morning Felling kind of bad What a night we had Full of mistakes Playing pretend 'Hey, how are you' Contrived disguised greetings On your phone Happy alone? We are apes Monkeys shot to space We are the disposable Disposable race God don't exist God don't exist God don't exist. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Nixon's Spirit (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, August 7th, 2009
10:17 pm	Lines I'll probably never get this "life" thing right. Just keep running myself into the ground until the wheels fall of. I should just start my memoir here, and hope that some asshole in an office stumbles upon it and gives me three grand for my thoughts. Which I'm sure I would shit and burn away in a matter of hours. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 29th, 2009
4:29 pm	Blogging the recession... yes a blatent Huffington Post rip off And again… I’m starting to get sick and tired of again. Community college… Again. Broke as fuck… Again. Another cigarette. If the economy is a living organism then it eating me alive, much like the rust on my 1995 Infinity G20. Trying to figure out a way to hack away at its tentacles… Again. Why environmental science? I want to see the earth before it withers away, another victim of corporate greed, hedge funds and hegemonies. There is still a Clinton in the white house, and a half drunk runner up in the co pilots’ seat, just waiting for his chance to fly the three-trillion-dollar-special-interest-and-tax-payer-funded fighter jet into the wild blue yonder. I have no fucking healthcare. My throat could swell up and I could turn blue, and I would rather run down the block to the CVS, buy a Bic pen, make that CVS brand, gut it and force the tube deep into my trachea. Everyone is a fucking journalist, yet there are very few fucking journalists left. Hunter Thompson made the point long before there were bloggers and iReporting; “A smart boy with good teeth can make more money as a gigolo in Fort Worth than most of the sportswriters in Dallas, or even a national news editor.” Please, “Blogging the recession?” Here’s a recession blog for you. High school drop out thinks that a college degree can help gain him some sort of financial footing, his family is poor. Works his ass off, while, you know, having to pay rent and, you know, live life. Graduates and… Nothin.’ Can’t even get a job working for some start-up. The established media outlets are slashing the budget and relying on the AP. Given some opportunity, any opportunity… I was born here, the “land of opportunity.” Now wealth begets wealth begets wealth. Hand over fucking fist. Current Mood: annoyed (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 23rd, 2009
11:49 am	Writer's Block: Youthful Transgressions What mistake made in your youth do you most regret now? View 504 Answers That I never heard the Pixies of Shellac Current Mood: calm Current Music: Shellac "Mama Gina" (Comment on this)
11:12 am	Sometimes I get so stoned, I wake up and forget the day before... Went fishing with Selmon and Tara, caught a sunfish. Went to the gym Jordan works at and... fuck man... Boy pushed and pushed... I am feeling it today, that's for damn sure... And it is likely that I'll do it again later... I would like to get paid first. Looks like I am en route to going back to community college, starting again. Can't find a real job, so fuck it. Get a degree in environmental science. Get a gig as a science writer, hopefully, when I get out. I give myself 2 years out here, east coast, Albany... Then, I'll likely head out west. Nevada. I have my own room now, it's pretty sweet. And I traded Jordan two pairs of sweet aviators for an old 1G MP3 player... Best... Deal... Ever. Shellac is the fucking shit. And Jame, if you're reading this... I understand, but you could at least tell me whether you are going to live or die, because the last time I talked to you the situation was dire. Current Mood: calm Current Music: Shellac "This is a Picture" (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, June 21st, 2009
12:22 pm	And... It's over. Another person that hates me... Another broken heart. I only care because I really don't like hurting people. I only care because of the way it makes me feel... Heh... That's pretty fucked up. Therein I am pretty fucked up. Now... I need to come up with $675 or a roommate in 2 weeks. Lovely. I feel freer... And once the money shit is in order I will be able to write. And breathe a sign of relief. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 17th, 2009
4:22 pm	Not such a good day... This has been... Woke up... Wanted to throw a dart at a crippled dwarf. The landscaping work went quickly though... Making some progress. Although it could be because it is mostly mind numbing work at times and my mind is wandering... Wandering. Thinking. Trying to keep things together. A part of me wants to be left alone... Or dead. But the problem is all of this bullshit wouldn't be worth shit if I was dead. I'm scared I am losing my ability to write. I haven't written anything of completeness in a long time. All clips and phrases. I'm too easily distracted. I have no idea what I want out of life... And fuck man, I have to STOP dragging people along for part of the ride... Then throwing them off at 100mph, when I crank up the speed on my car... She is trying to be normal now, and my mind is already made up. Now I am the weird miserable one... Fuck... I have to calm down. I have to get back to that place... Heh... I need to be alone. Fuck... This is never any fun. Hindsight. You stupid son of a bitch. Maybe I should just bounce... Books and clothes ONLY (computer of course.) Fucking Pudgecat. If he could only stand to sleep in a half running Izusu.  Have to go to dinner with her family. Have to find a way to FAKE this... Feign happiness. Not gonna happen. Gonna have to listen to her and her sister make jokes (many uncomfortable at my expense) listen to her mother talk about her laundry list of health problems (like a give a shit about what the doctor says) and... Well her dad is actually pretty cool... But I don't have much to say these days, and he likes to talk. I am never going to get married. I will never even think about that again. No kids either. Fuck it. That's just who I am... I am jaded. Current Mood: jaded (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 16th, 2009
12:03 am	Rolling The ball is about to start rolling... The longer I drag this on the worse it is going to be... I need time to write. I will not live this life in mediocrity. I need time to be by myself to figure out what mt staggering work of genius is going to be. I need to live on my own time... For more than 6 months, It is going to hurt her far worse than it will hurt me... But then again I also understand and she won't. Maybe she is right though... Maybe I don't show emotion. Maybe she is not meant to see it. I cannot leave my cat... Maybe I should just tell her to leave. Come back when the smoke clears... If it ever clears... Fuck that. It'll be much easier to move my own shit in the one night she is sobbing at her parents house... I know that is harsh, but she hasn't been the nicest person to me aye... Sooner than later... I cannot get to deep... Deeper than I already am. Current Mood: anxious (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 11th, 2009
4:17 pm	Fuck CNN Really... So tired of their "news" and this "iReporting" shit has GOT TO STOP... (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 9th, 2009
7:15 am	Planning Planning ones escape is like planning revenge. You must never let on your true intentions... Yeah... I know it's fucked up to just one day disappear, but there is no talking to someone that lacks basic logic. I'd rather not try and talk to someone that won't get it. I need a place for Pudgecat to live, which is the only reason why I am not gone right now. He needs a home. I could live on couches and put my shit in storage. I do feel bad. But I'd feel worse if I had to live every day for the rest of my life like this. I am miserable. I can't be myself. I can't leave the house without the 'I miss you...' She doesn't mean it, she just cannot think of anything better to say. Like 'I love you' in the middle of a conversation. It's just filler. I ALWAYS say that I won't make the same mistakes next time. And this time I likely won't... First I just need to get the fuck away. Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 4th, 2009
3:41 pm	Why do I.. Only write down the shit that sucks... I stopped using this thing long ago... I forgot the password... It might have come to me in a dream, I'm trying to quit smoking... As I sit here puffing down a Camel Filter. I really should clean this apartment. What the fuck am I supposed to do... Again? And again? And again? Reliance is a fucking bitch... I am no longer emotionally reliant... But financially... It's the worst possible reason to stay with someone. The WORST. I fucking know... But what else am I supposed to do? I'll end up homeless... Which I could honestly do... But what about Pudgecat... I need to get out. I need to escape. Why do I do this to myself? Current Mood: cold (Comment on this)
Friday, May 29th, 2009
6:58 am	Wow... I can't believe I found this shit This is my old LJ.. I just kind of stumbled on it... I didn't sleep last night... Insomnia makes me hate my life. Makes me think too much. Severely depresses me. Makes me feel like I did when I couldn't sleep because of the cocaine. I don't know where I am in my life. I want to leave everything. Start over. Figure out a new way to live. I want to take what little money I have and run. Let the Izusu break down on the side of the road and leave it there. I want to walk miles in the rain with no idea where I am going. I want to put my head between my knees and cry... Cry... Cry... I wish I could blame anyone but myself, but as usual I cannot. It's just in my head. It's just me... I hate myself. What I haven't become. This ability to feign happiness is becoming trite. It's quickly becoming a skill I would rather live without. I want to turn it off. Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 28th, 2005
11:12 pm	Wilderness, Wandering, and other words that start with the letter W What does the future hold? I don't know anymore. My ESP is gone. Damn it to hell. Current Mood: awake Current Music: The Black Keys (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 21st, 2005
2:28 pm	Bored 01. ] first name: Tim [ .02. ] middle name: Gregory [ .03. ] last name: Branfalt [ .04. ] nickname(s): Tim-Man, Timmay [ .05. ] gender: male [ .06. ] birthday: 04/28/84 [ .07. ] height: 6'3 [ .08. ] hair color: brown [ .09. ] eye color: blue [ .010. ] do you wear glasses or contacts: nope [ .011. ] do you have braces: Nope [ .012. ] is your hair long or short: short these days [ .013. ] where were you born: Madison WI [ .014. ] current location: Herk NY [ .015. ] zodiac sign: Taurus [ .016. ] how many languages do you know: English, bad english, ebonics [ .017. ] what laungage do you want to learn: spanish [ .018. ] bad habits: smoking cigarettes [ .019. ] piercing you have: ears, eyebrow, tongue, nips [ .020. ] piercing you want: another in my tongue and one that goes through the top of the bottom lip [ .021. ] tattoos you have: an amerikanized pot leag on my chest [ .022. ] tattoos you want: a pheonix, a pet cemetary, and the japanese symbols for serenity [ .023. ] today: Tuesday [ .024. ] today's date: 06/21/05 [ .025. ] the time: 2:33pm [ .026. ] ready for a bunch more questions: sure F A M i L Y [ .027. ] mother's name: Brandi [ .028. ] father's name: Tim [ .029. ] brother's name: Josh [ .030. ] sister's name: Destiny and Angel [ .031. ] favorite aunt: Kitty [ .032. ] favorite uncle: Bruce [ .033. ] favorite grandparent: Grampa [ .036. ] worst relative: ...my dad [ .037. ] best relative: Josh or my ma'dukes [ .038. ] do you get along with your parents: yes [ .039. ] does anyone in your family understand you?: to a degree P E T S [ .040. ] do you have any pets: Yes [ .041. ] what are their names: Pudge, Sativo and Pookiss before my baby ran away [ .042. ] what kind of animals are they: cats S C H 0 0 L [ .043. ] are you still in school: college [ .044. ] did you drop out: of high school yes [ .045. ] current gpa: 3.5 [ .046. ] favorite grade: college [ .047. ] least favorite grade: high school in general [ .048. ] favorite teacher: Devitt [ .049. ] least favorite teacher: Steele [ .050. ] favorite subject: English [ .051. ] least favorite subject: Math [ .052. ] do/did you buy lunch or bring it: buy it when I eat [ .053. ] play any sports on the school's team: no [ .054. ] do/did you do any extracurricular activities: drugs? [ .055. ] are/was were you popular: not really [ .056. ] favorite dance: The monkey [ .057. ] favorite memory: none yet [ .058. ] favorite memory you want to have: being published [ .059. ] least favorite memory: Champs graduation party [ .060. ] most humiliating moment: see above F A V 0 R i T E S [ .061. ] number: 420 [ .062. ] letter: Q [ .063. ] shoes: Adidas [ .064. ] saying(s): bloody hell [ .065. ] TV show: Aqua Teen or Sealab [ .066. ] sport: pro wrestling or baseball [ .067. ] vegetable: potatoes... or asparagus [ .068. ] fruit: pomagranets or mangoes [ .069. ] movie: anything Tarentino puts his name on, and SLC Punk [ .070. ] magazine: SI? [ .071. ] actor: Pitt and Lillard and Harrelson [ .072. ] actress: Angelina Jolie... [ .073. ] candy: gummi anything [ .074. ] gum: can't chew it [ .075. ] scent: females hair [ .076. ] candy bar: Milkyway midnight [ .077. ] ice cream flavor: Phish Food [ .078. ] color: green [ .079. ] season: spring [ .080. ] holiday: April 20th [ .081. ] band: Nirvana, NOFX, The Black Keys [ .082. ] singer: ...BB King [ .083. ] group: group? uhhh... Isn't a band technically a group? [ .084. ] rapper: Jay-Z, Eminem [ .085. ] type of music: Punk grundge [ .086. ] thing in your room: The girl on my bed, my stereo [ .087. ] place to be: In my bed with a girl [ .089. ] tv channel: Cartoon Network [ .090. ] junk food: anything gummi [ .091. ] overall food: pizza and wings [ .092. ] store: best buy [ .093. ] hangout: my house [ .094. ] fast food: McDonalds [ .095. ] restaurant: Applebees [ .096. ] shape: pot leaf [ .097. ] time of day: Night [ .098. ] country: Australia... Amsterdam [ .099. ] state: Dunno yet [ .100. ] boys name: hmmm..... Fucked if I know [ .101. ] girls name: Sativa [ .102. ] mall: Buckland [ .103. ] video game: NFL 2kanything [ .104. ] shampoo: I don't know... [ .105. ] board game: monopoly [ .106. ] computer game: e-wrestling [ .107. ] car: My Camry [ .108. ] music video: Ummm.... The Kill I think theyre called the chick is so fucking hot [ .109. ] swear word: fuck. [ .110. ] word: fuck. [ .111. ] month: April [ .112. ] cartoon character: Master Shake [ .113. ] scary movie: They all blow equally [ .114. ] team: Mariners and Bengals [ .115. ] possession: My pipe WHATS THE FiRST THiNG Y0U TH0UGHT 0F WHEN Y0U HEAR.. [ .116. ] eminem: white [ .117. ] dog: smells like shit [ .118. ] hot: dog [ .119. ] britney spears: preggers [ .120. ] nsync: god awful [ .121. ] real world: gay [ .122. ] orange: fruit [ .123. ] choice: steak [ .124. ] fuck: Leah [ .125. ] bisexual: Need to find one [ .126. ] black: color [ .127. ] icq: I don't have it [ .128. ] insane clown posse: crap [ .129. ] linkin park: crappier than ICP [ .130. ] jack: off [ .131. ] rainbow: death is on the other side of the rainbow [ .133. ] cucumber: salad [ .134. ] shark: gummi [ .135. ] lifehouse: isn't that a band? [ .136. ] bat: next to my door [ .137. ] leather: Ill never fly s&M airlines again [ .138. ] whip: Ill never fly... [ .139. ] america: BUllSHit [ .140. ] water: sex [ .141. ] volcano: hawaii [ .142. ] rock or rap: rock [ .143. ] rock or pop: rock [ .144. ] rock or r&b: rock [ .145. ] rock or metal: rock [ .146. ] rap or pop: rap [ .147. ] rap or r&b: rap [ .148. ] rap or metal: rap [ .149. ] pop or r&b: pop [ .150. ] pop or metal: metal [ .151. ] r&b or metal: metal [ .152. ] linkin park or limp bizkit: the LB [ .153. ] tool or korn: Tool [ .154. ] selena or jennifer lopez: neither... ever [ .155. ] hot or cold: hot [ .156. ] winter or summer: summer [ .157. ] spring or fall: spring [ .158. ] shakira or britney: neither... ever [ .159. ] icp or eminem: Eminem [ .160. ] marilyn manson or rob zombie: Zombie [ .161. ] kittie or garbage: Kittie [ .162. ] mtv or vh1: fuck em both [ .163. ] buffy or angel: fuck them too [ .164. ] dawson's creek or gilmore girls: Dawsons creek [ .165. ] football or basketball: football [ .166. ] summer olympics or winter olympics: fuck the olympics [ .167. ] skiing or snowboarding: Snowboarding [ .168. ] rollerblading or skateboarding: Skateboarding [ .169. ] black or white: Black [ .170. ] orange or red: Orange [ .171. ] yellow or green: Green [ .172. ] purple or pink: Pink [ .173. ] slipknot or mudvayne: Slipknot [ .174. ] hot topic or pac sun: Hot Topic [ .175. ] inside or outside: outside [ .176. ] weed or alcohol: Weed [ .177. ] cell phone or pager: Cell [ .178. ] pen or pencil: Pen [ .179. ] powerpuff girls or charlie's angels: Powerpuff Girls [ .180. ] scooby doo or dino: Scooby Doo [ .181. ] dragon ball z or pokemon: DBZ [ .182. ] star wars or star trek: fuck sci fi [ .183. ] tattoos or piercings: piercings [ .184. ] prep or punk: Punk [ .185. ] slut or whore: slut P R i V A T E L i F E [ .186. ] do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend: Not exactly [ .187. ] do you have a crush: not really [ .188. ] do you love anyone right now: No. [ .189. ] have you ever been in love: of course [ .190. ] how many people have you liked: too fuckin many [ .191. ] who was your first crush: I duuno... [ .192. ] how many hearts have you broken: see 190 [ .193. ] how many people broke your heart: fuck all that shit [ .194. ] best quote to sum up love: fuck love [ .195. ] so what is your bf/gf/crush like: chill, likes drugs, doesnt give a shit [ .196. ] do you have a picture of him/her: in my head [ .197. ] please post it if you do: not possible [ .198. ] do you have a picture of yourself: of course [ .199. ] please post it if you do: no... too much effort [ .200. ] do you go by looks or personality: depends on the situation [ .201. ] ever kiss a friend: sure [ .202. ] are you still friends: yup [ .203. ] so moving along..do you smoke: yup [ .204. ] do you smoke weed: just got done.. hell yes I smoke pot [ .205. ] ever trip on acid: yes I have and will... TOMORROW! [ .206. ] how about a little x: yup [ .207. ] crack, heroin, anything else: coke, shrooms... [ .208. ] beer good or beer bad: Beer GREAT [ .209. ] are you the sissy who drinks wine coolers: sometimes if its hot and I want juice [ .210. ] do you like smirnoff ice: see above [ .211. ] prefer beer or liquor: liquor, although that tends to lead me to blackouts [ .212. ] what kind of cigarettes do you smoke: Kamel Reds and Newport 100s [ .213. ] have you ever drank Hypnotiq: no, but would like to [ .214. ] if yes, when was the last time you got some: W 0 U L D Y 0 U EVER.. [ .215. ] bungee jump: yup [ .216. ] sky dive: yup [ .217. ] swim with dolphins: why the hell not [ .218. ] scuba dive: yup [ .219. ] go rock climbing: yup [ .220. ] eat shit for $1,000,000: whos... or whats [ .221. ] turn your back on your friends for personal gain: I doubt it [ .222. ] steal a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend: nope. [ .223. ] cross-dress: for money or personal gain [ .224. ] lie to the police: of-fucking-course [ .225. ] run from the police: have before would again [ .226. ] lie to your parents: yup [ .227. ] walk up to a stranger and kiss them: sure [ .228. ] be an exotic dancer: sure [ .229. ] walk out of a restaurant without paying: sure, but Id leave a tip [ .230. ] streak: Yes Y 0 U R F R I E N D S [ .231. ] best friends: Champ, Leah and Wilson and Little E and Eric and John [ .232. ] known longest: Champ [ .233. ] wish you talked to more: Little E [ .234. ] wish you saw more: Little E [ .235. ] how many friends do you think you have: a handfull [ .236. ] who drives you insane after a while: Wilson and Champ [ .237. ] who can you stay around forever and never get sick of: Little E and Eric [ .238. ] ever lose a good friend because you took it to the 'next level': not yet... I dont think [ .239. ] craziest: Me [ .240. ] loudest: Wilson [ .241. ] shyest: Eric [ .242. ] best hair: Wilson [ .243. ] can always make you laugh: Wilson [ .244. ] best eyes: er.... Leah [ .243. ] best body: Leah [ .246. ] most athletic: Champ and myself [ .247. ] sex symbol: me. [ .248. ] hot tempered: None of us are too bad, but Wilson is probly my candidate [ .249. ] most impatient: Champ [ .250. ] shortest: Little E [ .251. ] tallest: Me [ .252. ] talented: Champ [ .253. ] best singer: champ [ .254. ] skinniest: Eric and Little E [ .255. ] nicest: Little E and John [ .256. ] best personality: Eric Little E and John [ .257. ] biggest drug user: all of us HAVE Y0U EVER: [ .258. ] flashed someone: yup [ .259. ] told a person how you felt bout them: of course. [ .260. ] been to michigan: no [ .262. ] gone to jail or juvie: No [ .263. ] skateboarded: not very well [ .264. ] skinny dipped: yup [ .265. ] stolen anything: Yup [ .266. ] wanted to kick my ass for making this so long: actually, now that you mention it [ .267. ] kicked someone's ass: quite a few times [ .268. ] pegged someone in the head with a snowball: Im sure [ .269. ] broke a beer bottle: of course [ .270. ] gotten into a bar, under-aged: yup. 17 and 20 [ .271. ] kissed someone of the same sex: yes [ .273. ] gone on a road trip: yes [ .274. ] gone on vacation without adult supervision: I think so [ .275. ] been to a concert: Yes [ .276. ] been to another country: Canadia [ .277. ] talked back to an adult: I am an adult, but yes [ .278. ] got pulled over: damn it yes [ .279. ] got in a car accident: not yet [ .280. ] broke a law: Everyday at least once [ .281. ] given money to a homeless person: fuck no. Im hobophobic [ .282. ] tried to kill yourself: couple times [ .283. ] cried to get out of trouble: probly [ .284. ] kissed a friend's brother or sister: uhh.... I dont think so [ .285. ] kissed a brother or sister's friend: uhhh.... Probly. [ .286. ] dropped something on the floor that you were cooking and let someone eat it anyways?: I worked at Pondo, hell yes I did 0 P I N I 0 N S [ .287. ] what do you think...about pop music: crap [ .288. ] about boy bands: They suck [ .289. ] about flag burning: It is protected by my first amendment rights, and I have one on my wall [ .290. ] of the war on terrorism: Bush is a fucking tyrant [ .291. ] about suicide: I dont know... I have tried it, but fuck it if thats your thing [ .292. ] about people who try to force their opinions on you: Keep trying [ .294. ] about rock/metal music: if its punk its great... I could live without metal [ .295. ] where do you think you'll be in 10 years: Fucked if I know [ .296. ] who do you think you'll still be friends with in 5 years: Champ, Little E and Leah W H A T D I D Y 0 U D 0 [ .297. ] last birthday: Got WASTED [ .298. ] yesterday: went to work, went to a bass ackwards bar, played some beer pong, got caught about to have sex on the hood of my car, played darts and had sex [ .299. ] last weekend: Probly got drunk... I think I got wasted... [ .300. ] christmas: I dont really remember [ .301. ] thanksgiving: Again... I dunno [ .302. ] new year's: Got drunk? [ .303. ] halloween: Again, I dont remember... [ .305. ] valentine's day: Fucked if I know T H E L A S T [ .306. ] thing you ate: Chicken pot pie [ .307. ] thing you drank: Mountain Dew [ .308. ] thing you wore: What Im wearing [ .309. ] place you went: to get the pot pie [ .310. ] thing you got pierced/tattooed: nips [ .311. ] person you saw: Wilson [ .312. ] person you kissed: Leah [ .313. ] person you fucked: Leah [ .314. ] person you talked to: Wilson [ .315. ] song you heard: A cover of Brown Eyed girl by Me First [ .316. ] what are you eating: Nothing anymore [ .317. ] what are you drinking: nothing anymore [ .318. ] what are you wearing: Old school Bock's, socks, Jnco jean shorts a nirvana shirt, boxers and a hat [ .319. ] any shoes on: see above [ .320. ] hat: yes [ .321. ] listening to: See 315 [ .322. ] talking to anyone: no [ .323. ] are you pissed i made this so long: now I am, cause you keep asking the same fucking questions [ .324. ] are you a vegetarian: no [ .325. ] do you like cows: sure... cows are cooler than horses [ .326. ] are you a bitch: No [ .327. ] are you artistic: sometimes [ .328. ] do you write poetry: not really anymore [ .329. ] are you a fast runner: sometimes [ .330. ] can you ski: doubt it [ .331. ] are you british: no [ .332. ] do you want to spear britney: In what sence? [ .333. ] do the voices talk to you: fuckin A [ .334. ] did you ever give barbie a haircut: I dont fucking know [ .335. ] would you eat mac & cheese with hot dogs in it: sure... [ .336. ] do you think disney creators were on acid when they made 'alice in wonderland': someone was on acid at some point [ .337. ] are you straight: I hope so [ .338. ] are you stupid, insane, and another physically handicapped: probly,,, [ .339. ] are you nice: to some [ .340. ] are you naughty: sure [ .341. ] are you short: no [ .342. ] are you tall: yes [ .343. ] do you own a hot pink shirt: hell no [ .344. ] how about orange pants: no [ .345. ] can you see the flying monkeys: no [ .346. ] are you evil: sometimes [ .347. ] did you ever know someone who had a mullet: I hope not [ .348. ] is britney a whore: not enough of one [ .349. ] are you a teenage zombie: no, Im 21 [ .350. ] am i annoying you?: sure are [ .351. ] do you like marilyn manson: not inparticular [ .352. ] are you secretly from another planet: Maybe. Its a secret [ .353. ] did you ever touch someone else's private parts: Hell yes [ .354. ] this is over are you happy now hahah: Fucking A right. That actually annoyed the piss outta me. Current Mood: calm Current Music: Emergency Exit by Beck (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, June 19th, 2005
11:46 pm	So ordinarily we couldn't be friends... I fucked a prissy Barbie Doll... How cool is that. No one cares. How cool is that?! I didn't realize how wanted I was. A certain infactuation by everyone that knew me... Not really everyone, but quite a few of them. A good handfull. I wear aviators, because I am cooler than everybody. Serioiusly, you only live once. Destroy your body, expand your mind. Take it all in before you die. I'm a stoner that loves pain. Pleasure. I can have it all. clean sheets. pillows. Maybe she... Maybe she... Maybe she ran away. Sure she did. Yes... I can. Damn vaccuum broke. Puke on the floor. Poor ma-dukes. I'm so broke. It consumes my thoughts but there is nothing I can really do about it. I don't spend money on partying. Just gas a food mainly. That luck will change. I hope I can stay the same. I like me. I like my life. I think I am gonna go listen to music and read Palnahunick. Late HCT Current Mood: high Current Music: Boy Hits Car (4 Comments |Comment on this)
10:37 pm	Life is strange... Good, and I am Po' Sex drugs and rock and roll My personal Amerikan dream. I was told that I should stay away from females for awhile... I didn't listen. I love not being in an actual relationship. I can't wait for school to start. I gotta go see Tracey. She'd in love. Thank "God." Life is good. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Johnny Cash Ring of Fire (Comment on this)
Friday, June 17th, 2005
12:59 am	Suzie Q How wild. My Life. Word association. Content-----------Failure Content-----------now? content-----------content. This is my heaven This is my hell This is my life This is my happiness. I just like to write. Whatever is in this mind. I like to hear her laugh. I want to be in Minor Threat. Malowski's band is good, but the singer sucks. Tight. My conversation. Made for you to see. Don't be so vain. Current Mood: high Current Music: Suzie Q by CCR (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 16th, 2005
9:21 pm	Wilson would make a good pirate Current Mood: amused Current Music: Subterranian Homesick Blues by Dylan (Comment on this)
9:17 pm	Disney Land... Can't even feel the drugs I took... I haven't taken any today. I'm gonna go make some food... Worthless post Current Mood: amused Current Music: Aeroplane Blues by the Black Keys (Comment on this)